On the Outfit: This is called casual to me but all my friends told me that I was dressed up. These are the times when I miss New York City. What else would I wear bowling? I mean, I was wearing jeans and a T-shirt. Either way, I love this look and I like to balance a crop top with something some kind of coverage. I wear this leather vest a fair amount because it is such a wearable and versatile piece. Whenever I am suppose to go casual at night, booties are my go-to. They are comfortable and never over or under dressed.
On my mind: Hemingway use to describe writing as "sit at your typewriter and bleed." Well, I don't have a typewriter, I have a PC. I'll tell you what else I have. I have not much to bleed about other than the disappointments of being a romantic. We need to stop watching romantic comedies, listening to Taylor Swift songs, or reading poetry. This love doesn't exist anymore if it ever did. We killed our innocence, our openness, and our passion. Mostly, you killed it. I was here and you killed that. I cared and I wish you killed that. I wish that you had murdered the amount I care so I wouldn't hurt right now. But that's just how it goes. I believed in you, and I still do. I never won't. I see a side that other people don't get to. I see your softness, your sweetness, and a different kind of smile. I see your passions, your loves, your hobbies. I see you protectiveness and the way you talk about your family. I see how you miss them. I see how you keep even them at arm's length. I see you pain from them.
I wish you just said that I was only and that was all you needed but you couldn't make that commitment. I wish that every night could be like that night after we got into our first big fight. I remember how it felt to be in each other's arms and to feel your arms around me. I remember the passion that brewed up between us and the softness of your lips. I remember how you looked at me and how I could help but scratch at your skin.
I'll remember the first time you didn't wear a T-shirt and how there was such a James Dean quality to the fact that you could look so sexy and so cool in just a T-Shirt. I'll remember a lot of things but right now, what hurts the most is that I remember our potential. But unfortunately, it's Ciao Bella.